Uhhhh Ohhh, NOT Again!

I’ve had it; I am fed up with completely letting my lenient nature towards food constantly set me back. I am not a horrible eater by any means, but there are times I am way too laid back in what I put in my body. Not to mention the enormous fact that some of those foods are terrible for my body, in the fact that it physically upsets it. I have a very great sensitivity to dairy, so much so that if I drink milk I break out into some serious hives, this right there tells me you really shouldn’t be eating that. Do I listen? For the most part I stay away from concentrated forms of milk. What to do you mean by that you ask? Well obviously I don’t drink milk, eat yogurt, ice cream, shakes made with milk, cake icing made with milk…etc. What I do eat is cheese, I have such a horrible time with not eating it because….well, it’s like crack to me. Laugh if you will, but I am willing to bet we can all think of things in our daily diet we think we can’t live without. YEAH…that’s what I thought!!! Recently; however, I’ve noticed that although I love cheese it really doesn’t love me, it probably never really did if I want to be completely honest with myself, I just wasn’t ready to give it up and it didn’t bother me as bad as drinking milk. I mean only occasionally did I have to take Benadryl. YES, I am completely aware of how ridiculous this sounds. I mean here I am health conscious for the most part, and I am putting in my body the very thing it is clearly telling me it doesn’t like. We all have this cross roads at one time in our journey, I know. It’s a very hard thing to realize you don’t need when your brain is telling you “I want that”. I just cannot physically sustain this behavior, and expect to get any kind of results other than bad. I feel bloated and sometimes even sharp pains from eating this, and knowing this fact why is it so hard to walk away. I’ll tell you because food is a drug, and I know you know what I mean. Your brain wants what it gets from you eating that, you think about it until you give in and have it, only to make yourself vulnerable to the consequences of having it, much like drugs. I hear all the time that sugar addiction is harder to kick than a drug addiction; I obviously have no real life comparison of this fact, as I have never been addicted to drugs. I can see how that comparison can be made because well I’ve been on the sugar side of that. It is something that I still have such a hard time with. It gets easier to resist it, but the desire never goes away. With cheese though, DAMN is it super hard to get away from and even having an incentive to do so. Up until now, it has been terribly hard, but I have decided it’s time to cut  ties and move on. It’s like a horrible break up where I just want to sit in the floor, curled up in a little ball just crying my little eyes out. I can’t believe after all these years of faithful ingestion you’re just going to do me wrong like this. I know it was something I had to do, leaving you behind, but I just didn’t want it to end this way. Yeah I make light of it, but really its how I feel, and it also helps to alleviate this situation with humor.  I also find that bread is starting to bother me, not sure why that is, but it does. I get that same feeling I get from eating dairy…bloated, just over all Yuk. Maybe I am more aware to how my body reacts to certain foods because at one time I did cut them out. I know what it is like not to eat them, and now what it is like to eat them. I have a physical comparison, where before it was just normal to me. I know it isn’t normal for my body to feel this way. Uhhh so in this knowledge I have decided to go back to pretty much a Paleo lifestyle. I am not a hardcore Paleo girl, but I know the benefits from eating this way, I’ve lived it. I will modify to fit what I want to get out of it, but I am pretty much behind the concept. No dairy, no problem. Also I have decided to cut the breads and grains because they make me feel pretty much the same way dairy does. Processed foods aren’t good for anyone anyway, so this is cut as much as possible for me. Also I really have to cut the refined sugars because really in truth my body doesn’t need it to survive. I know there are so many people out there who are adamantly against this lifestyle, and you are entitled to your opinion. I; however, have tried it, and it works for me. I am not pushing on anyone to try this, or even that all people should live this way. What I am saying is that it is what I choose to do because it seems to agree with my body far more than eating the way I have been. I know I will have to adjust this diet because Paleo, the regular way, isn’t intended for a lot of physical assertion; people do it every day I know, but read about it, it has to be adjusted to fit an athlete’s needs. I am by no means an athlete, but I work and exercise beyond what is a normal recommended Paleo workout. So I must adjust accordingly. I know they have a Paleo plan for athletes out, and I plan to take a look at that. I’m no expert, as you can probably tell. I’m just telling you how I have come to believe this is right for me. Anyway, this is a short blog post, but I just wanted to put this out there, kind of to hold myself accountable, and to let you know people struggle with healthy eating all the time. It isn’t as though we gain knowledge on how to eat, and then we just don’t ever struggle with old habits, it is a constant work to stay healthy and one you must be dedicated to no matter what form of eating you choose to do. I am hoping that this will fix my tummy, as I do not like it feeling sick. 

On a quick side note, today is day 11 of Asylum…GAME DAY :-/. I am kind of nervous about this one because it is what I am certain will be 60 minutes of pure hell, and I haven’t had a chance to preview this one, so I know nothing about what is to come from this. I am just hoping I survive this torture. Is Asylum hard? You betcha, but I am loving every minute…SO FAR.

Have a beautiful Sunday my Sexy Beasts